DIY: bleach shirt

If you own an old, dark shirt that you don't wear and wouldn't mind getting ruined, then you are in for a little experiment.
Grab the closest bleach bottle (even I had one in my cleaning closet so I am sure the rest of the world will have some as well) and get creative.

Now pick a quote. Or a pattern. Or a sketch. Even dots or whatever you would wear on a shirt and paint it on. I chose a quote which accidentally matched the theme of my tote bag DIY.

You will notice the color change almost immediately after putting bleach on the fabric, dont forget to put a piece of cardboard in between the layers of fabric or you might have some bleach spots on the backside. You will have to layer the bleach, but after about 3-4 layers and 12 hours of letting it sink in, my shirt looked like this and I'm not 100% satisfied with it (mostly because I didn't pay enough attention to the lines) but I will still wear it more than I did before.

30 day photo challenge: Intro & Day 1

As of today I will start my photo challenge. I found this particular list on pinterest, most of which I've seen are pretty similar to each other so I just picked at random.
Of course this will help with technique and such but the most important thing is that I will make a habit out of taking pictures.

The first day is 'Self portrait'. I actually put on makeup and did my hair so I would have a nice picture, later on I just sat outside in my pyjamas and a blanket and took a pic just for fun. And guess what? That one turned out to be the best portrait.
So today I already learned something: A portrait should show who I am, no fancy make up, no nice outfit. Just how I like myself best: relaxed.

I will still include the others, but judge for yourself, none of that is as 'me' or as natural looking as the one above:

where you invest your love, you invest your life

Lately, since I've been missing my friends a lot, I've been thinking about how much love I have in my heart for all these beautiful people I call friends. They travel the world and chase their dreams, they dare to be themselves, they are creative, intelligent, inspiring folks and although right now I am far away from pretty much all of them, I feel so blessed.
It's funny how people become flawless to me when I care for them, inside and out. 

Friendship never came easy to me. As a child I was very introvert and as I had no siblings, talking to other children was really hard for me, so I usually didn't.
When I left elemantary school and started gymnasium I became a loner. No one liked me and eventually the bullying got so bad, I had to transfer to another school.
I wasn't running away, I just wasn't taking their shit anymore.
After that things went way better, I was at a very artsy, open-minded school, I started to be more outgoing, I dyed my hair every color of the rainbow and went through some really extreme phases.

But most of all, I found friends.
For the first time I was accepted and loved and felt I could trust the people around me. But I have never taken any friendship for granted.
I know I am a human being. I have flaws, I have moods and sometimes I am sure it is hard and frustrating to be my friend. That is why I am so immensely grateful that certain people stick around and love me, even when I am at my worst. Talk sense into me, listen to the same old shit over and over again.
I have friends who held my hand at my father's funeral.
This is as good as it gets, no one could wish for more.

I decided the best thing I can do with my time abroad is working to be the best version of myself so I can be the friend they deserve.
Every single one of them inspires me to be a better person, I really hope they know that.

Pretty salad & lemon yoghurt dressing

I love tiny tomatoes. I love them with pasta, in salads, in pasta salad and all by themselves as well. Screw those huge watery ew-tomatoes, I will chose tiny tomatoes over them any day.
Another thing I love is rucola salad, the most flavorful salad. It's not just green bitter stuff, it's amazing tastes-kinda-like-nuts leafs from the green fields of paradise!

Most of my meals are some dish with 4 times as much salad. I love salad, it's my favorite food.

Also, salad is just so pretty.
The dressing is yoghurt, balsamic vinegar, lemon juice, salt and pepper. And a bit of olive oil.
I decided to add 2 cooked potatoes so I won't starve.

All this rain makes me want to run away.

May is almost over and it went by so fast, it's crazy! We went to our hometown and I spent a lot of time with my friends, I really missed them and I already miss them again. My mother and Carolina came to visit and it was the first time one of my friends visited me in Switzerland, pure bliss!

Originally I had planned to spend most of May swimming and on our patio but as there was next to no sun this month and temperatures are far below 20°C most of my time was spend indoors. I think I haven't been this pale in forever and I crave Vitamin D like water on a hot day.

Because of the constant rain I didn't have any motivation to take pictures either and I feel like I'm being inconsequent with my goals, so I made a bad-weather-survival-strategy which includes a new journal, a lot of tea and books as well as a 30 day photo challenge.

Talking of goals & challenges, I made myself a list of things I want to get better at, like being more patient and live consciously. It totally involves actually answering emails too because I've been a horrible friend lately.

may wishlist

may wishlist

I love pastels in spring!
I wish I could find a nice kneelength skirt but I can't.
Since I don't buy clothes here in Switzerland and I haven't bought one single piece of clothing when I visited home last week it seems I'm on a shopping ban until July, which I actually love. I went to some shops back home but everytime the tag said "made in Bangladesh" I just couldn't. I want to buy more consciously. I don't want to blindly consume.

Still I enjoy looking at pretty clothes in pretty colors. I just won't buy unneccessary stuff anymore.

i wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile

Today I was able to go without tights. Praise the weathergods for finally doing their job right!
The only place I had to go was for a walk. I have a day off work and no idea what to do with my time. Not the worst feeling in the world.

 Next week we'll take a trip to our home town to visit family & friends and I am so excited to go. I can't lie I am very homesick at the moment. This makes the trip even more special and exciting.

a new hobby.

 So I remember one of my goals for this year was to learn something about photography.
When I was younger I had very low self-esteem and avoided pictures at all cost. I hated myself and couldn't bear to look at my face or body in photographs.
As the years passed I learned to like myself a lot more, now I am sad that there are so few pictures from when I was younger.

I came back from India without any good pictures because of that stupid point&shoot camera I brought with me... I decided to invest in a DSLR. So I got a basic one off ebay. I used it a couple of times especially when I went to Cambodia but still can't quite figure it out. I want to take a photography class when I am back in Germany, but here in Switzerland it's just too expensive.

   Instead I decided to try the learning by doing approach for the time being. The weather improved a lot last week so I went to the closest forest to take pictures twice already. I want to make this a thing, this is totally self serving because not only will I get better at taking pictures, M will learn all of that as well so he can take my pictures. yay.

Hello May!

Guys, it's MAY!
In Germany, we have a saying which goes like "May makes everything new" only it rhymes and actually sounds like a saying in German.
But I decided this is going to be my motto this month. It's time for new traditions, new adventures, new goals and a new attitude.

Taking walks will be very high on the list of things I'm gonna make a habit of in May. Others include actually spending some time on this blog, meeting my friends back home and spend Mothersday with my Mama! And berries. I am obsessed with berries lately.

 I have a feeling May will be a good month. The sun has been shining non-stop, everything is blooming and looking fresh and all this beauty finally made me feeling all bubbly and happy again!